I have a lot of residue symptoms from very early childhood CSA or CPA. I don't remember anything. A single nightmare got me digging. Talking to my sister got me some info about the incident, and the subsequent behaviour change.

Something happened.

Something else in childhood left me with avoidant or disordered attachment style.

Something left me with numbed emotions, a part of me that is hypervigilant, and with serious trust issues.

Something left me with feelings of self contempt, "I'm worthless" the reluctance to look in a mirror.

I feel like all the good stuff is a facade, and the real me is much darker, ickier muck inside. If people saw the real me they would turn away in disgust and revulsion.

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All the signs point to CPTSD.But there is nothing to attach a session to.

Is EMDR even a possibility in this kind of case?