Hey all, just wanted to say that I am about 5 months into the process and have processed soooooo much. Last night and this morning I realized I felt or let myself feel angry for almost the first time since I was a little kid.

One of my biggest thoughts and beliefs for so long was that I was a bad person, and any emotions like anger or frustration meant I was bad. I had a really abusive older brother who treated me like less than a person for years, and family was similar.

But I feel like this might be the first inkling of maybe that’s not true? Maybe my older brother who was abusive to me for years was the one in the wrong, maybe as a 7 year old I wasn’t an evil human being because I didn’t do the dishes, maybe I wasn’t a villain in my family for not being perfect.

I’ve been so massively people-pleasing my whole life because I felt like I had to be in order to not be a terrible person. Maybe I don’t need to do that in order to be a good person.

Would love thoughts here or if anyone has had similar feelings. My brain wants to tell me that I’m wrong about these new feelings, might be nice to hear from other people ❤️