I flip flopped between the two diets for 6 years and before that I was constantly going for month long stints with vegan and vegetarian diets and then would just fall back to eating meat until I just stuck to veggie one day and never looked back. A few years later I had to switch to pescatarian due to stomach issues and then never strayed away up until this year.

I decided to stop drinking because I had a problem controlling myself. It was one of the hardest things I had to do but having to restrict myself in another area of my life after being so obsessive about my diet actually made me realize I can give myself leeway to not be so controlling over my diet. When people asked me why I was pescatarian I would say it was because I cared about animal well-being, it was better for the environment, etc etc. but to be completely honest the reason I even started doing it was bc it was the easiest way for me to avoid eating high calorie foods with meat in it and not have people question me about why I was avoiding it.

Having to restrict myself from drinking made me feel like I can treat myself to eat what I want. I still try to eat a mainly pescatarian diet at home since animal slaughter is still something I care about but it feels great to be able to enjoy all the food I’ve been missing out on for years. To top it off I’ve actually lost weight because I’m less bloated from drinking and now I can eat a more protein rich diet.

I think in the past couple of years I’ve been able to undo my disordered eating habits an focus on doing things that are actually going to help me feel good down the line (I.e. no drinking, working out, therapy).