I'm not sure why there doing this. But the whole first chapter of my early childhood development textbook is about how screwed up the feild is and how the ppl In it make so little. I'm so scared. I love my job as a nanny. I'm not sure what I wanna do long term but I wanna make a difference and with my skills I think the best way would be to help kids. But this chapter on top of all the other stress that comes with starting college, starting adulthood (I'm 20), and on top of this because of school I'm having to cut down on work hours so thats also stressing me out. I'm so fucking scared. Idk what to do or think. I want to not care about the money and some parts of me don't but there's always a part of me that worry's about my finances. Im not even sure I wanna be a teacher. I just wanna help kids that are going through struggles like I went through. Like druggy parents, poor, abuse, whatever. It just feels like if even the first chapter during the first week of school is trying to discourage me then what am I doing screwing myself over. Do I do what I love or do I sacrifice for financial security? Or is my course just trying to prepare me for the worst? I'm so confused. I'm not gonna switch right away if I do because I want to give this a legit try I just need some console..