I’m a stubborn person and a workaholic when I’m passionate about my job (not the case currently). I never wanted to admit this, but today I thought to myself “should I even be working with this condition?”

I work a strenuous factory job and today it killed me. The repetition, heavy lifting, cycling 10miles with a full backpack, I could barely handle it.

I made it through the 8 hours, but god damn it was a struggle. My neck kept twitching, my shoulders were extremely tight and uncomfortable. The stress of all of this only makes things worse and I nearly passed out from the pain cycling home.

I’m being prescribed diazepam, but I don’t take it at work because I’m either working with scalpels and surgical blades or in a factory environment where safety is one of my top priorities.

So to those who have or know someone with dystonia (doesn’t have to me cervical), how do I get through this? Is this something to overcome or to accept and adjust my lifestyle?

I’m just sitting here crying to myself over how fucked up I feel, how I fear that this condition is going to fuck up my future.

Any advice or words of encouragement is appreciated. ♡