I have developed PTSD during 2020 , I've seen a man die in front of my house, he took his own life jumping from a window right in front of my house, I struggle to write that without feeling nauseous. I had horrible moments during 2020-2021 cause I had so much flashback and I still fight with it. My parents are extremely emotional neglectful, my mum say to me that I didn't really see nothing, my grandma (who wasn't there!) even tried to convince me that I had immagine all the scene because my mom said that. The reality is that my mother has started to forget something I'm unable to forget, the memory is still so fresh, so scary and painful and it's even more painful to have to deal with it without any support, I can't even talk about it with my mum without she saying that I didn't see anything, I basically invented my diagnosed PTSD with false memories that triggers me to this day. But the worst happened some weeks ago, I was very anxious ( I have OCD that have gone worse with PTSD and pandemic) and my father seemed to care for once , he asked what PTSD is (even if I'm struggling with it from 2020 and he should have known what PTSD is I'm very used to him being absent). I tried to explain without triggering myself. He replied "But you didn't know him" "Yeah but ....I mean I have seen her body, I have seen the ambulance..." I was trying to explain why seeing a man dead with paramedics trying to save him right in front of my window fucked with my mind, I had to justify my own trauma. "You're just too sensible, I mean you can just say 'who cares' and don't think about it" I was in a terrible situation due to my anxiety and I only said "yes" "You know, sometimes I think about all my failure and I get sad but I can't think too much about it, you have to do the same, you get it?" "Yes" I'm so devastated, this trauma is hunting me, it have worsened my OCD , and basically all I had from my family is "you invented it" and "try to don't think about it". I think that my parents response to my trauma is going to be a trauma itself.