So f 50. My mom died at the beginning of Covid after 53 years of marriage to my dad. They were upper middle class and had it all. Dad started looking for a new wife after 6 months, ended up with a nasty little thing (78) with three adult children and a couple grandkids.

New bit hated me from the get go. I tried my best with her but nope.

She had him sell the family property and move a few hours away to where her kids live.

Went there to celebrate my 50th and Father’s Day. He told me he never loved my mother and the new wife expounded on what a terrible person my mom was.

My husband told her to fuck off. I tried to make nice. Things settled down. Told my dad I wanted to have more of him in my life. Went home

Got email saying he loved me and asking me to call the next day.

Called no answer. Called the next day. No answer Get email telling me I’m a rotten manipulative evil person and he wants nothing else to do with me and told me to never contact him again.

So here I am at 50, alone in the world except for the husband who probably loves me but doesn’t show it ( no affection) and my two dogs.

I hate who I’ve become and death can’t come soon enough. This isn’t a life and I don’t want to live this mess.