Yesterday my manager was slightly rude to me and it set me off on a bunch of crying. The big thought that came to mind was that nobody likes me. I know this isn't true, but it was like the exact breakdown I had like 20 years ago when I was in high school.

I've always kinda struggled with being social and making friends and I have been drinking for about 20 years now I guess and pushing that down and thinking I'm getting by. I'm really lonely and feel like it's so hard for me to connect to anybody I work with and they are this big social group. I just want to get this out somewhere. I've heard that whatever age you start drinking, you get stuck there maturity wise and in this case it feels true.

Can anybody tell me it gets better? Anybody have something similar they're experiencing?