So over the weekend at a club, some guy offered me a tiny piece of paper to put under my tongue, and stupidly, I decided "oh I guess this will give a similar buzz to everything else that I've tried" so said why not and did it.

Only put a tiny, tiny bit under my tongue (I ripped a tiny bit off of what he gave me as it felt sensible to not try the whole thing as he suggested), and then after not feeling anything for a while, didn't think anything more of it and went home a while later.

Soon enough after going into bed, the world started getting fuzzy, and the worst night of my life was about to begin. I kept on screaming horrible things to my partner, and I just couldn't stop. I burst into tears. I kept saying horrible things about myself that I didn't even recognise in myself. And I kept digging and digging horrible holes, and even though I realised what I was saying was utter BS, I simply couldn't stop. It was like someone or something else was in control of what I was saying and I couldn't stop. I was erratic and was even scaring myself.

I couldn't sleep a single second and even the next morning until well into the afternoon, my coordination and ability to pick things up etc was impaired.

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Now, I am completely aware that it was my own, very very stupid, fault for trying something that was just randomly given to me and without researching it etc in advance. I never did that before, ever - and I certainly won't again. Wow. I still feel horrible today about what I put my partner through and I hope to never go through that again. Lesson learned!