I’ve been clean close to a year and since then have become a really bad alcoholic again, and when I originally started using meth I noticed I never had any craving for alcohol. I definitely abused the meth last time (used for close to 2 years) and I’m almost positive it made me not the same person mentally but I almost feel like I’ve noticed alcohol taking an even bigger toll on me. It feels like I need to swap one demon for the other and meth almost feels like the lesser of 2 evils. Also pretty sure I’ve had major adhd my whole life and at least when I was on meth I would occasionally get shit done unlike now how I can’t even leave the house at all.