Please forgive me if I sound stupid as I've never tried psychedelics. however, I've been reading about them since childhood. and feel I have a decent understanding of their effects on consciousness and emotions.. based on this understanding, I've developed a strong dislike of psychedelics and never wish to try them, not because of their acute Hallucinator or panic effects, but rather because of long-term changes in consciousness and outlook on life which could damage my extremely fragile personality which is lazy, laid-back, irresponsible and prone to anxiety/stress. Many people with similar personalities to me have had terrible reactions to psychedelics. As for nicotine, I absolutely love the stuff and have been using it from high strength pouches given to me by my brother. The longer I use it the better it feels especially the euphoria and motivation enhancement. But the most interesting effect of long-term nicotine for me is something I can only describe as anti-spiritual. chronic nicotine makes me much more focused on the current moment, feel much less connected to nature in certain ways and somehow reduces my consciousness. I'm really sorry about these terrible explanations but I can't describe it. very well in words. what I will say is that the effects I experienced from chronic nicotine seem to be quite the opposite to those which come from psychedelics. Personally, I think I benefit immensely from this strange effect of nicotine on me, it helps me deal with procrastination whilst also preventing my overthinking and anxiety, thus making me more resilient to chronic stress. Maybe I'm a little strange, but I really enjoy these effects because i've always found meditation and other deep spiritual practices very uncomfortable. Reading about both deep spirituality and the effects of psychedelics. immediately makes me feel very depressed and agitated. Given that nicotine affects me in this way, I'm assuming that all the highly rewarding drugs like amphetamines, opioids and benzodiazepines would also affect me in this way.

Can anyone else relate to what I am saying or am I just deluded?