(I’m writing this while tripping btw) let me set the scene I just turned 18 today, and I’ve been wanting to try dxm for a while now. I’ve held off for a while because I have respect for my parents at and brothers. Just did it. Realized that I want to take a gap year and work as an EMT and get my BSN in Nursing. I’ve just had an amazing convo with my boyfriend about love and realized where I wanna be in life. I have never been able to talk about my emotions and how I feel before like this in my life. I realize that the reason I’ve been so hard on myself is that I derive my self worth entirely from other people’s perceptions of me. There is also a feeling of extreme euphoria but I know that this can be addictive so I’m never gonna do it again but this is incredible.