Hello! I’ve tried mushrooms 1 time on a cruise that was a memorable experience to say the least.

With family on a cruise two of my aunts who have taken shrooms before and knew about them I assumed it would be a safe fun trip. It was a chocolate bar I remember and it purely could’ve been I just took to much. But regardless it was a lot of the bare..

Not to get to into detail as it was pretty bad I had to get put into my room by family and stay there for about 6-8 hrs till my trip ended. While tripping I saw colors and shapes like whenever you look into a kaleidoscope. Saw myself looking down onto cavemen then myself as one like that one scene in get out where he watches himself while inside. The bad part was, I felt alone and panicked, mainly crying cause I felt alone. I suffer from depression and wanted to jump off the boat which is what lead me to be put into my room. After the trip I still felt alone by my family and not seen, lots of trauma from my childhood was brought back up during the trip. Took me around 6 months to get back into my normal mindset. A big fear while tripping as well was I was never gonna be able to think the same and would go into psychosis.

The only enjoyable thing from it was looking at myself… lol Ik. But when I did I was normal looking but I saw almost an aura around me and my eyes that was a pastel rainbow ish color and found myself beautiful.

Now for the actual question, my best friend for years who I trust with my life. We’ve been through trauma together and have consoled each-other the point being I trust her.

She enjoys mushrooms doesnt peer pressure me as we smoke weed as well so we’ll just do that instead. But I want to have a good experience. I’ve heard people say intentions are important when planning to trip. Could I just plan for to be happy? Just watch some movies and take much less of a dosage?

Or would y’all say it’s a better idea to just not try them anymore at all? Any advice would be greatly appreciated:)

Much love