For the last few years I've done various psychedelics (LSD, shrooms, DMT, 2C-B), smoke ton of weed and did some ketamine. For a long period of time I was very excited about it and spend many hours digging philosophy, psychology, Erowid, Psychonaut Wiki, subreddits etc., but lately I've came to conclusion that while some experiences definitely made my general wellbeing better and made me more concious about my emotions and stuff, on the other hand it's kind of unhealthy escapism from this "boring-cruel" reality, my tasks and my problems.

I'm 25yo now, probably I will still trip from time to time in the future but I thinkt that it's very hard to appreciate and be excited about psychedelics and being high functioning non-delusional adult in the same time - I've spend so many hours on contemplating the meaning of life and the nature of reality that it really feels hard to live my life the same as before, I think it's very easy to get that constant derealisation/depresonalisation feeling.