Long story short I’m pathetic. I’ve been sober for almost a year now. I was cleaning my room and found a sack of meth and an old syringe that had previously been used. I rinsed the syringe out with water but that’s about it. I ended up shooting with it and noticed instantly my vein was really red and sorta swollen, bump? (Not a miss) Fast forward today I go to use again in that vein and it barely pulled any blood and was very tender. Also noticed clear liquid leaking from the bump.. it ended up going in but I didn’t feel it much at all with the second shot. Like I didnt get the rush or anything like that. Even yesterday the “rush” took quite some time to hit me.. It wasn’t a miss I would’ve definitely felt that. Now there is a small lump and a lot of tenderness around the area. (Pit of my arm) it hurts to move my arm. I have a fever and sore throat now? A little nausea but nothing to serious. I don’t have health insurance or I would’ve took my ignorant ass to the hospital already. I’ve been putting a hot compress on the area, what else should I do? Is this just a blown vein? I need advice, not opinions.. please. I know I am the stupidest person in the world and yes I am very ashamed and beating myself up for this. I’m going back to NA this week and truthfully out of all the bad this story is. I’m thankful it wasn’t pleasant. because this is not the life I want to live anymore.. maybe I just needed to see that again.. Thanks guys.