I’ve been taking it 4 days a week for about a month because I was in a bad mental slump and didn’t want to fall back on harder drugs that I used to be addicted to

But the last week I’ve really not been coping at night, I can’t sleep, I haven’t eaten properly in days, but when I’m not on it I’m just suicidal and unmotivated. I’ve been exercising more, I’ve applied for a job, I’ve started driving lessons, but when night time hits I feel scared, alone, panicked and lost and I just want to kill myself. Has anyone had this experience with it? I don’t understand why it’s so bad from such a mild stimulant. Does anyone have any tips on how to self soothe? Really not doing good rn