Before this I only ever done weed alcohol and nicotine. Heavy and problematic use for all 3. I just got an eviction notice and I can’t even pay rent for the last month I’m here and I was so sad and stressed so just said fuck it and took half a Xanax tonight, idk how many mg it was, it was a small blue pill. I then smoked the FATTEST bowl of weed when the Xanax started kicking in. The xan def wasn’t a euphoric high but I felt good. I then left the house late at night and just had this newfound motivation/confidence.

I would just start sprinting every few seconds. I just felt so free and like I could do anything I then half sprinted half walked to a McDonald’s and then realized my balance was $1.65 and they didn’t have any deals for that so then I half sprinted and half walked to a grocery store on the entire other side of town then realized it was closed so Ithen lost energy at this point and got tired and then I just walked all the way back to the other side of town some to a 7/11 and got a bunch of snacks and pizza with my EBT card.

Then I walked home while eating the pizza (I ate the whole thing) It was so peacefully it was late and foggy asf.

I was out for hours. I just got back and definitely coming down but I just don’t feel anxious at all. It’s great.

luckily I didn’t steal anything, but I definitely understand why people do it on Xanax now. I was kinda tempted.

Xanax is definitely weird because it’s not euphoric but it is very calming and definitely not numb but not euphoric either, like I just felt calm and definitely happy but not euphoric either.