Long story short, dated a girl in Eastern Europe who admitted to doing drugs, though she left out the cocaine part. My initial thoughts - no big deal, since I also experimented with weed and LSD in the past.

Come second date, she let her habit of cocaine use show. Again, my initial thoughts - OK, no big deal, if she's not addicted to it. Everyone has their own vices, right? Even gaming is an addiction for some people.

But I think the way she went about getting her fix gave me pause and made me think that she was an addict. Or at least, on the way to becoming one. I did confront her about it, but she said that she doesn't do cocaine that often...

So, users or former addicts of cocaine, would love to hear your input on her behavior:

1. First sign I noticed - even while on our first date, she was checking her phone for good deals on drugs (she claimed she was on the lookout for weed or shrooms). Apparently she joined one of those Telegram groups where dealers advertise their wares.

2a. On our second date, her actions seemed premediated earlier on in the night. She was already tucking away strolls into her bag for later use. 2b. This part I can't be 100% sure, but I think I also saw some bottle of pills in her purse that were meant for relaxation and to counter the effects of cocaine in the case of an OD?

1. When we were exiting a club that we were predrinking at, she spotted a biker gang. They approached us, and she was friendly with them. Made small talk with them...and then eventually asked if they had any cocaine. This struck me as odd - not only was it not normal behavior to make small talk with gang members, but she also asked for a hit. The first alarm bell that her need for a fix outweighs normal sense and common decency as a date.

2. Eventually we made our way to a club known for drug use. She danced for a while before heading to the second floor to scout for folks with potential cocaine. When she identified them, she would follow them, make small talk with them, act all friendly. I guess her strategy worked cuz she managed to bump a few lines off them. This IMO was where I draw the line - not only was it disrespectful behavior as a date, it also showed a lack of impulse control.

After she got her hit, we proceeded to dance. Of course I confronted her about it, but she explained that she was just using them for a free hit, nothing more. Question 1 - But yeah, that's just gaslighting, right? All her actions indicate that she seems to have a cocaine habit that is spiralling out of control.

To be clear, I don't judge her for doing drugs / cocaine, since I've done weed and LSD in the past. It's more of the context in how she got her hit that disturbed me. Not only was it disrespectful towards me as a date, it reeked of desperation and borderline addiction. Question 2 - But perhaphs there's a slim chance that I'm just being clingy? Because if we were to replace cocaine with weed (or even alcohol) in this context, then it doesn't seem so bad, right? I mean, people also cozy up and act friendly with others just for weed / beer in a social context.

Question 3 - I was tempted to try cocaine with her, but didn't. What does it feel like? I noticed she needed 4-5 lines each time. And her hands would then get twitchy and sweaty, and she would always grip my hand and squeeze them. Also, she became more talkative afterwards.