My first experience with MDMA was three years ago. Over these three years, there were times when I took it once a month and other times when I went long periods without it.

For me, MDMA was all about love; I just wanted to share it with everyone. But now, it’s not the same. Sometimes, the empathetic feeling is so residual that I doubt whether I’m really taking MDMA. Not to mention the comedown and hangover I experience now.

I don’t understand how people who have taken it many more times than I have, and in much larger doses, can still enjoy it. Is it still worth it?

I know everyone reacts differently, but I’d like to know how long the magic lasted for you.