With finals coming up, I really tried to study for college exams for the first time without stimulants. I haven’t drank, smoked weed or taken adderall for 6 months and now it feels like it was all for nothing. I know that I wouldn’t keep my scholarship if I don’t get a certain GPA, however by staying awake I can finish up my project and study for my other exam with enough time to crash and sleep late tonight. I feel like shit that I’m breaking sobriety to do this but at the same time I will continue to not smoke or drink. I used to abuse adderall at 120mg doses however this time I took a normal prescription dose. I don’t really know what I’m looking for. Advice, words of encouragement? I’m disappointed in myself.