Hi, about 2 years ago, I did molly. I used to smoke a lot, minimum 1/8 a day max 8g. So yeah, this is how it went.

I took about 100mg of molly...redosed, 60mg..next day another 100mg, redosed 60mg weed. Started hallucinating my thoughts, thought it was fun, so next day another 100mg, redosed 100mg weed...I was a complete idiot, I know. So yeah, next day, I wake up and I'm still rolling, but just the visuals... (everything on my peripherals was moving...(I say that I was still rolling because part of what made it fun, was because I was literally imagining myself being at a club surrounded by people, dolls in front of me having a tea, seeing my friend in fetal position in the corner of my room, dude dressed up as a hotdog riding a bicycle in the shape of a hotdog, song lyrics on my windshield ((i wasnt driving tho, i was smoking in my car))...anyway...the next 2 weeks, constant thoughts about off-ing myself breaking down randomly, thinking about sad stuff.

Still have the hppd, but I can't even notice it anymore, unless I really focus on it. Stopped weed after a major panic attack. Been sober for the last 2 years.

About 4 months ago, was prescribed trazodone for unrelated sleep issues, and it brought back up the hppd, stopped taking it and took 3 days and it went away. Probably has something to do with serotonin.

Now I wanna try sum fun this weekend, my first thought was opioids, but fuck that. benzos are dog shit, weed makes me panic...so I thought, why not do the most wonderful drug ever created...molly.

Now, I need y'alls advice. Since then I've changed a lot, I'm not that same fuck head, and I know what not to do; Only do it once, one redose, then a 3 month or more break.

Should I do it or not? And if not, what else is there (drugs) that won't ruin my life, or make me anxious?

Danke