I stole drugs from my older brother. 5 mdma pills, some amphetamine, a lot of shrooms that he picked and and bought, ketamine, several LSD tabs, all his weed. Totalling around 150-200 euros I'd estimate.

It's been months and he still hasn't seen his now empty drug reserve. It started with taking a little bit, so that he wouldn't notice, and eventually I lost all control and would rather get high and forget that I'm literally stealing hundreds worth of his shit (discounting the effort to get them throughout the years) than to contain myself. I had just started getting over this drug bullshit too, I guess the only positive thing from all this is that I feel a lot of guilt and shame, which is a catalyst for growth.

I'm just venting and letting it out before I get my ass absolutely beat. This year has been long, and this is the last bs I'll deal with this year until I start fresh.