Hey everyone,

I used to love smoking. It was a huge destresser for me, and I’d smoke almost every day. It was such a chill and enjoyable part of my life. But at some point—and honestly, I can’t even pinpoint when—it changed drastically.

Now, whenever I smoke, I get overwhelmed with paranoid thoughts and this intense self-criticism. It’s like my mind turns against me, picking apart everything about my life. I start to feel disconnected, almost alien—like I’m somehow fundamentally different from what a person is supposed to be. I’ve always been a pretty self-conscious and insecure person, so it doesn’t make sense to me why this only started affecting my highs out of nowhere.

I don’t smoke much anymore because of this, but every few months, I’ll give it another try, hoping to go back to the fun, relaxing highs I used to have. It just hasn’t happened.

Has anyone else experienced this kind of switch-up? Did you manage to push through it and enjoy smoking again? And what could be causing this sudden shift in how weed affects me?