so like the title says i think i hit my rock bottom. last night i got drunk and did some ket with my girlfriend at her place. i don't really know what happened but i was chillin and then all of a sudden i'm half dissociated and puking all over her room. i just remember writhing around on the floor yakking and trying to convince my gf that i'm ok(i was very much so not ok)she told me i almost choked on my vomit a couple times. i've been doing drugs and then stupid shit on drugs for a long time now, but i've never just completely lost control and acted like that before. this event has really shown me that i need to stop drinking, as it's the third time i've gotten too fucked up in a month or so, but the drinks and ket have been basically everyday for a while. idk i've just never come away from an experience feeling so disappointed in myself. i never thought alcohol would become a problem, but now that i can see that it is i just feel like a child. anyway thanks for reading, just needed to get this off my chest. happy trails.