So to put it like this, I started using DXM week and few days ago. Did 150mg on tuesday, 300mg on friday and now after 7 days planning 450mg (tomorrow), Is this safe? Im planning to do higher doses 600-800mg every once in weeks, from what I've heard all the different experiences that the drug fucked them up for life. Im only 16 almost 17 and dont have much friends that do any drugs so this is the only thinf, I can get. Luckily its super expensive here and I barely make money. I have extremely addictive personality to the point even If i dont enjoy the drug I keep doing it to finally get a good high from it, which worked for me with weed, did it 3 times in a row all shit experiences, told myself that ill never do it again and did it the next day for 4th time and loved it, bingrd it for month and hated being sober, since the 2nd of april I started abusing kratom which high doses always got me a horrible high and low doses just numbed me in every way -----‐------------ Prior to now I have very high tolerance and I binged it even while on SSRis which killed the effects for me. Now i need 25g a dose to feel anything. Im just so mentally addicted to anything that makes me feel good now which kratom does but it took months to start getting actually a good opiod type high. I cant stop mentally but if I stopped rn I barely have any WDs even after binging on heavy usage since I metabolise it really fast and the effects arent that strong, I had worse WDs from 8gs before everyday since that got me nodding off with extreme nausea. I just wanna enjoy life but I cant be sober. I just cant. I have ADHD and im so compulsive I cant stop doing drugs. The only time I did a drug only times was THC-P because the high made me lost touch with reality even when I was sober for a week after. Im probably fucking up my body hard and even my heart feels like shit. I almost passed out today and feel extremely exhausted everyday after school and losing touch with reality. Im just hopeless