So I haven't done nitrous in like 4 or 5 months the last time I did it I had an absolutely horrible panic attack lasting 6 hours my heart rate was 186 and my bp was insanely high it felt like I was losing control and function of my body.

so I didn't touch it for months my friend got a w tank a few weeks ago and he brought me up a balloon I had been smoking weed. I was sitting in my room in front of the ghost of Tsushima the yellow leaves were falling down in their pattern. I slowly hit it to feel to see if a similar effect happened as before and I just got euphoria and normal nitrous effects so I kept breathing it in but slower than normal and holding each hit but smaller amounts per hit than normal.

When the balloon emptied the most insane thing ever happened to preface this I've done salvia hundreds of times DMT 8 times I've done sheets of acid in my life I've done tons of research chemicals in heavy dosages and when I finished that balloon I had the most intense visuals I've ever had in my entire life and I have never had visuals on nitrous before. All of reality became an infinite void with a yellow infinite fractal pattern zooming in at me like those YouTube videos I couldn't see reality at all.

I've smoked 60mgs of DMT in 1 hit and I could still see reality. I don't understand how or why this happened and I would love to experience a state similar to this again.