Im 23 M who was a very healthy guy beginning of last year I smoked weed alot but was very active nonetheless, but last summer i tried cocaine here and there when im out or at parties. Then it turned to all weekend, then some weekdays, but recently these past 4 and a half months I’ve been using almost a gram or more daily. I don’t even know how I got here and it’s getting worse. It’s like I wake up do whatever I gotta do with a very poor performance then boom… go and get high with my life falling apart. I started talking to this beautiful girl during these 2 months and have been hiding it( I dont use when I’m out) but lately even if I have a chance to go hang out with her I make something up because I have no dopamine and she’s honestly be better off wondering what’s going on than seeing me look like shit. I don’t even have sex because when it’s time to penetrate I struggle and I don’t even know why. Haven’t seen my friends in about 3 weeks almost and lie saying I’m busy. It’s like now I’m only myself when I’m high off cocaune recently and I dread being sober. Im lucky if I sleep for 2 hours daily, don’t care about my hygiene. barely eat, I’m even losing hair man lol. Whenever im high have all things I wanna do then 10 minutes later I need more to keep going. I don’t even feel it sometimes anymore. I plan on quitting right now. If you’ve been or experienced anything like this or not as well Any advice would be helpful.