Went in on a gram with a friend. Was supposed to be MDMA. Stupidly took some without testing it after he said he took some the other night and just felt happy and gooshy. Small amount done, like a key bump. Just felt a little weird after maybe 45 minutes to an hour. Pupils slightly bigger but no euphoria. No happy feelings. Just felt like I maybe took a 1/4 tab of acid or something. Second dumb decision, decided to take some more. Again, not a lot, but like a key bump sort of (a lot of it is in rocks not so much powder).

He took some tonight and is all happy and gooey. I wasn’t feeling anything remotely similar. Then ten minutes ago I got a rush throughout my whole body. Felt more like a panic attack than happy euphoria. Whole body started sweating. Mind you, this is like, an hour and a half after initial ingestion and maybe 45 minutes after the dose up. Still no ultra happy feelings. Currently just fighting off a panic attack. Had to get up and immediately use the bathroom. Contemplating taking a Valium because I am not tryna have a hellacious night full of panic.

Realistically I think I didn’t even take 100mg. Bag is a gram and I took definitely less than a tenth of it…so not sure what the hell is up.

I’d think with MDMA I would just feel happy and comfy and loveydovey, not mildly trippy and then suddenly on fire with anxiety. Thankfully I am alone now and can just ride this out in the dark with low stimulation.

I’m just wondering wtf this actually is. I’m going to get a test kit and test it before I do any more (probably won’t do more and will just sell my half of the bag to my friend because he isn’t havin any issues with it).

So basically, late onset, no euphoria but had a moment of being comfy, waves of panic, mildly trippy but no clear visuals or anything, pupils sorta dilated but not saucers…the fuck did I take? Am I just having a bad time on what is probably MDMA? Maybe it’s Mephedrone? Doesn’t feel as speedy as I would think though either….dumb. Don’t be like me.