The cost of cigarettes is going up by a lot. That includes e cigs and things like iqos or glo which are my form of nicotine of choice. I’m also hella worried about my health. I keep thinking about quitting but today I had a situation that made me question my ability to do so. I’m generally a very tame person, but today I woke up and realized I have no cigs. My boyfriend smoked the last one from the pack because he thought I have more in my backpack. I almost started crying and kept saying „I’m gonna fucking flip” like a maniac, then while getting ready to go buy cigs I felt such unspeakable anxiety and irritation I couldn’t bare it. But I tried to fight it and went to the shop feeling like a piece of shit. Immediately after smoking all these feelings - gone. Apologized to my boyfriend for overreacting. And then I realized that quitting smoking will be HARD AS FUCK.

For some context, I’ve been smoking regularly for like 7 years. I’m also on a calorie deficit and losing weight, I was obese but now I’m 9kg down and just overweight, but still have ~15kg to lose. I also have mental issues (ADHD, cluster B mixed personality disorder, anxiety and struggled with depression in the past) but I’ve been off my meds for almost a year now and managing very well with therapy. I’m so worried I’ll start gaining weight after quitting and that all my hard work in therapy will be good for nothing and I’ll have to get back on my meds. I have my life put together right now and I’m scared quitting will destroy it. This is so fucked up.

If anyone has any tips for quitting please share, I know I need to do this but I feel miserable just thinking about it…