The days are too long but I chose to get off weed after being diagnosed with psychotic features and three bad highs in a row that involved vivid hallucinations

I know I should stay off and I will continue to but I'm on holiday now with three stoners and I join them at the bong every night just not partaking

I miss it, the smell the taste the ritual of lighting a bong every day for 6 years it's hard to get through everyday not thinking about it but I must stay off it

Any advice or wishes? I smoke cigs to get thru it and I used to smoke marijuanila as an excuse to use the bong but on holiday I don't have access to any fake weed and I feel rude not going out there while they're smoking but sometimes I just get so tempted