So lately I have been experimenting with NOZ out of boredom and depression. Used to fuck with this stuff heavy with my long term drug addict ex. I recently realized my favorite smoke shop sells those mini tanks for like $20 so fuck it I wanna get high. Fuck those little canisters, those were always a pain in the ass. The future of whippits is here and it is so easy. This smoke shop even gives me a stamp card and abunch of extra punching bag balloons. Tonight is my lazy night in and I’m off 3mg Klonopin, some Kratom and some big ass balloons. Feeling fucking sexy!

At the peak I always have these epiphanies. They feel so profound at the time and it excites me, like I blast off and am going to break through into something big. Sometimes I find myself talking to people that arent there, or even talking to the walls laughing at the absurdity of existence. Unfortunately I can never remember these “Earth shattering” realizations once it wears off. I always say “what the fuck just happened? That was so weird. Lets do it again” When it wears off.

It always has to do with putting puzzle pieces in my mind together. Figuring out what is wrong with me, why I feel the need to get high in the first place, why nobody sticks around in my life. Just facing my demons. I have the answer and then I lose it. It also makes me realize life is pointless…in a good way though. Like making peace with my insignificance in this world and laughing about it, but some entity is laughing at me too.

Damn no wonder people combine this shit with psychedelics lol. Someday i’ll try that and probably lose my mind. Top 5 drug on it’s own for me tbh!