It seems the party drug of choice nowadays for people my age (I’m 20) is K and I’ll just never understand why. Most people seem to have moved away from molly and even coke and now at raves, festivals, and clubs the crowd is just a bunch of K zombies.

Don’t get me wrong, I love K in the right place. I like doing it at home, sat down, with dim lights and good music, closing my eyes and seeing where it takes me. But I just can’t seem to enjoy it in places like raves or festivals, and all my friends do. Am I doing something wrong?

First of all, moving is such a chore on it. I can’t understand how people can enjoy being up and dancing. Whenever I’m on K and dancing I’m just hyper aware of how slow and stupid I look. It makes me feel stupid too, I can’t seem to understand anything and everything is just confusing to me. I can’t dance, I can’t hold a conversation, music doesn’t sound good on it unless it’s a specific kind of music. Every time I’ve taken it in a social setting like a rave or festival it’s just made the vibe so weird and I haven’t enjoyed myself.

I would love to enjoy it as a party drug and I’m super happy for those that do, but I just can’t. My party drug of choice will always be molly, everything just feels so much better for me on that, it just sucks you build such a quick tolerance for it and can only do it so often.

Does anyone else feel the same as me? I feel like everyone loves it and I’m missing out