What was the experience like?

Was the Bupropion helping not feeling too bad when getting off of the Kratom (or opioid)?

I want to be free of Kratom and use Bupropion for my depression instead as the Kratom developed many side effects and negatives for me.

Important to notice: i had the depression before i ever used kratom, i‘ve also already been through 15 medications and 3 talk and behavioral therapies. So please no typical recommendation as find a therapist, pdoc and the typical meds. i tried the whole last 10 years.

I really hate taking Kratom but it‘s the only thing killing my depression and helping me focus. But comes with big costs, higher anxiety, nausea, dizziness, so I‘m mostly too anxious and sick to get out or see people so I stay in my room try to study or (mostly) procrastinate my obligations of university…

It‘s bad. I really want to be free of it but I know as soon as I stop it I will feel this horrible pain of depression again and I was feeling it all day for so long, from the moment u was opening my eyes to the moment i fell asleep again. Kratom made this reduce a lot and gave me a little bit of joy - in some things at least. Also my focus is horrible normally but Kratom helped me study a lot, only thanks to Kratom I got best grades on exams and can proudly say that I‘m in the last semester of my master‘s. I remember the time without it I wrote bad grades and I never was able to focus on study anything. Plus the bad depression.

Any other tips and help are very very welcome. Im feeling doomed. I dont go out anymore except i take my pregabalin. I dont do stuf i dont eat stuff i dont experience. I stagnate and devastate. So much stuff tried and none worked. What the hell should I do, how should i be able to see a future like this.