About 9 days ago I accidentally took way too much Xanax, however despite it being accidental, it made me feel really good for the parts where I wasn't blacked out. Better than anything. This kind of awoke something in me that made me want to try more things to feel good like that again, however at a small dose. If I take something, I will usually take a smaller dose because I really really don't wanna become addicted, so the smaller the dose the better. I just want to feel good with minimal risk, which is why recently I've been pairing it with masturbation. This isn't some fetish thing or a kink, I just find that pairing smaller doses with masturbation makes me feel just as good as if I took a larger dose of something. Maybe this is due to my hormonal disorder, but I have no idea. I always find that whenever I do this, my mind is calm for even sometimes days after the drug wears off. It's like my brain is in a constant state of Serenity (ironic since that's my name) after the drug wears off which lets me live really peacefully.

Also, I would really appreciate it if other cis women would reply since you guys probably have more experience with this and would know better specifically about doing this for girls, but men are also welcome to reply. Just please, no creeps. I've delt with creeps enough recently. I just want to anonymously get advice for this without getting judged.

So, my question. What is the best possible drug(s) I could pair with masturbation? I might delete this later because I guess it's kinda embarrassing, idk. Let me know if you need more information, especially about stuff like how my hormonal disorder works.