Im an ex benzo addict who was taking 10mg xans with alcohol and klonopin. Im clean for 1.5 years nearly. Benzos really fucked up my life before.

Right now I have an insane insomnia even worse than withdrawals of benzos. Its take like 4 hours in the bed to fall asleep and Im waking up every 30-40 minutes and could sleep for 3 hours max. Tried a lot of meds and the only med kinda working is seroquel and its have horrible side effects i cant take that shit.

Went to a psychiatrist last day, I talked about my insomnia and he prescribed me diazepam and alprazolam. (I couldnt tell him i was an ex benzo addict)

Im thinking about took only 0.5mg xans or 5mg diazepam, I know Ill have the best sleep with them. I feel like My brain trying to trick me and trying to convince me I can use them with moderation. But Im absolutely know and feel like I will be fucked up again and that 0.5mg will be 5mg in a month.

I think Im gonna flush them of the toilet but Im not ready for that. What yall thinking about that?