a few months ago I was hospitalized because of my suicide attempt and bpd. I'm 24 and met there a guy. He's 35. He was there because he's addicted to pervitine. We had an affair but we also clicked with each other. We promised that once we get out, we'll be together. I was released in August and he was kicked out of the hospital one week before me. We don't live in the same city. He kept saying that he needs to go to his homeowners and save some money. He wanted to move to the city where I live because it's bigger. Everytime I asked him when he's moving, he said 2 weeks. The last time I saw him, was in September. He looked so happy, so good and healthy I even believed him he's sober this time. I haven't heard from him since today. He texted me saying that he slipped back to drugs and is in hospital. Will be out probably next year. I can't believe it, because as I said the last time he looked healthy and full of life (maybe was on drugs at the same time I don't know) but this just ruined everything

I really love him and want the best for him but I'm not gonna sacrifice my mental health if he doesn't want to get better.... I'm fucking crying nonstop, wanna go see him but I don't know what to do.