So I took 4 grams today. It all started a few months ago. I've been giving alcohol a much needed break after binging and overdoing it on whiskey, rum and whiteclaws/beers for quite sometime... well really years. I've been trying to lose weight and I realized maybe all the drinking is contributing to my bloated gut and plateauing weight. So I was trying to find some similar alternatives that would help me relax socially. Weed had never been a favorite as it could cause anxiety. But CBD was one. Kava had been one as well. Kratom. And I still had this bottle of Phenibut from Nootropics Depot from 2017. Still had most of the bottle. Decided to give it a try one weekend with the guys. And hey, it wasn't bad. I did do it a few times 7 years ago but never since as I mostly drank. And sometimes did benzos. (Bit of an addiction with benzos, relapsed a few times this year.)

Anyways, eventually I ran out of that bottle. Did 1g a few times. 1.5. And 500 once (A bit too light) Then 2g and 2.5 grams. (This is usually spaced out to a few times a month.) But it's been a while since I did any, about a month or so. Maybe a bit more. So to start the day I did 2 grams. Took a few hours. My buddies were drinking their whiskey drinks and beers. It kicked in, started to get more talkative and social. Got more confident, social and my friend noticed my increased eye contact as well (I felt so much more well spoken and talkative, as I usually have bad social anxiety, OCD and general anxiety.)

Then later this night (Earlier) I decided to redose. Took another 2 grams. (Roughly 5 hours later) Felt even more euphoric and a great body high. Greater music appreciation as well. We listened to Tyler, The Creator's new album and got into some philosophical discussions about life and insecurities and religion/politics. My buddy and I were vibing. And my other buddy as well. Then I found this old vape in my drawer and took a bunch of hits and got super high. I think it was a Blue Dream cart vape. Wow. Powerful stuff. Mixed well with the Phenibut though. So did the kratom. Felt a strong body high. (Took like 10 g kratom) and then we listened to more music, my buddy helped me grab a bunch of party lights from the garage, I have some pro DJ lights. One that has a blacklight and some colorful psychedelic trippy lights. We had that going for a while and then listened to a few more songs. Also noticed very low appetite. Barely ate anything but a protein shake and a banana. (Kratom and phenibut reduce appetite BIG time I notice, though that's not bad since I need to lose weight lol.) I also did DXM the day before (250 mg) and had a bit of benzos left in my system. But my buddy realized I needed to eat something so he made us grilled cheeses. We joked around I took a video with my phone as I was singing about dicks or whatever and then we rambled on and chatted more and jammed out to some Shania Twain - Man I feel like a Woman (Great song what a bop!) and then I vaped a bunch more, took more kratom and CBD finally. And then my buddy said (7 hours total of hanging out) we should watch a movie. It was about 9:30 pm, and I do think we were all a bit tired. We were considering a fire/karaoke but a movie sounded chill as well. And I was a bit tired from all the frickin weed. So I looked at a bunch of movies. Couldn't decide. Finally chose Evil Dead 2.

We watched Evil Dead 2. Was a fun time. We all just were zonked and my buddies were falling asleep but I was high as a very tall building in outer space or a giraffe... very high holy shit. Watching that movie with all the drugs was an experience though. I really felt immersed. Every sound and vibration was intense. But I really had a good time. By the end of the movie I was laughing at stuff. Even if my friends fell asleep I didn't mind. Was so fucking high and felt good. Amazing euphoria by this point. Body high was great. Then I watched some more youtube and cleaned up slightly and then I decided to come wind down on my PC play a few games and go to bed. But I did vomit ( a little while ago) I think the combination of too much Phenibut and kratom did it. And I did eat some nachos too and drank some water which I think made the nausea worse. But I did need to eat and the weed gave me the munchies. And I did experience some dizziness. I would say 4 grams is a bit too much. I just wanted to keep the high going. But in the future I won't go over 2 grams or so. Maybe just 1-2 from now on. And I will probably not do the kratom. But overall a fun time. I also hear mixing it with benzos isn't safe, anyone know about that? If you read this, thanks. I am still very high ahaha as you can imagine from my detailed writings. But hey, still, a great fucking time. I'm pretty high and have a bit of a gross taste in my mouth from the vomit. But I figure I'll chill for a bit, then have some water and wind down and try to get to bed in the next hour or 2. Overall, a fun time and Phenibut is fun, but just don't overdo the dosages. I know I did, I have an addiction personality and sometimes overdo it. But still, yeah. Wow.