been abusing carts pretty heavily. stiiizy specifically which i know they’ve specifically gotten in a lawsuit regarding psychosis. Ive just felt fucked up. i just feel so scared and im so paranoid but for no discernible reason. i feel like im living a different life, like everything is just this sad scary reality. but would i even be able to type this if i was in psychosis? It was already bad and then i got really high and watched a horror movie (smile 2) and i feel like it genuinely fucked me up. i watched it sober the other day and was fine. i feel like i can relate to the main character, theyre going crazy but just trying so hard to go on with life but its just getting harder and harder. i haven’t smoked in like 6-7 hours at this point.

also i got weird fucking messages today about a job recruitment for like a talent agency in LA. thought it was just a bot so i blocked the number. they fucking messaged me from another number apologizing and asking to please explain the opportunity?? am i tweaking or that’s honestly just weird as fuck. that also was part of what set me off today.

especially since in the movie the Main character was getting texts from an unknown number?? it just set me off

im also coming off a 9 day T-break and i went pretty heavy on the usage today despite that.

I have diagnosed obsessive compulsive disorder aswell. Idk if that’s known to increase chances of psychosis but considering its an anxiety disorder i would assume so?