Intake 6:50pm. Route: oral Dose: 45mg (no disso tolerance)

This is my first disso use, i read alot about it, prepared for this trip 1week ahead, mood was very elevated, very excited in general. I took it in my room all alone. I am writing this 3hours after intake, the following paragraphs are the words I wrote in my journal.

7:20pm 30minutes- as I am writing this the effects are coming up really fast, RC's come up so fast it's fukin scary not in a bad way but until now every RC I have tried orally comes up like a rocket, it's different from thc, mushrooms or krathom. I have a very nice buzz and I'm enjoying it I'll report more later..

8:30pm 1h30- that was just the most intense experience I've ever had no joke... I still feel it but the peak is gone, I can't really describe it, I could and I will but the following words will be pretty incomprehensible. 1hour before... I was in my room all alone, feeling the comeup and... Big explosion... My mom asks me "do you want your cup of tea?" So I say yes, I come out struggling to move my legs as I'm sedated big time, all of a sudden everything starts to rush I grab the tea, my mom asks what I'm on I deviate the question and lay back down everything is rushed, extremely rushed, super rushed, everything goes by so fast, I'm not in my body anymore. I just feel my brain floating, traveling thru this RUSH it's like traveling to another galaxy although I know I'm here.. And now all I think of is.. Einka my meditative entity, I call it over and over again and he appears, I ask him "what's going on?" And he says "go easy on the drugs you bastard". So I, take it personally, I start crying, am I crying ? I don't fukin know I can't feel anything, only thing I can feel is the sound around me, I can hear pretty much everything, my neighbors talking, electricity buzzing around me, the sound waves is all I can feel, nothing else, it's a big messy RUSH, why?

Was it my mom? Was it me not being comfortable? Was something off? 1hour gone in 10 minutes and I feel like I learned the whole process of life in those 10minutes, so much happened..

As I'm writing this it's 9pm I'm coming down and I am absolutely blown away by this substance it was terrifying and at the same time my third eye opened is that what you call a hole ? I have tried some stuff until now but MXIPr what was that? I've never been that deep somewhere with myself before it brought me somewhere I never thought would exist, I sunk into what felt like a different reality...

I hope everyone has a very nice night, I'm happy I can go to sleep .