I am trying to get diagnosed with ADHD and want to know how Adderall will affect me continually.i have taken a dose of 20mg and felt great like voices I didn't know I had going through my head just stopped it was so peaceful.how will this change when taking it more often? and do you think I will be prescribed a lower dose based on my experience?I was thinking of trying gabapentin before I get prescribed anything to see how it affects me.i plan to abuse it occasionally as well.just curious your thoughts.

Ps. I have experience taking benzos like clonodine and that helped with anxiety but I didn't notice it change my focus. I also have panic attacks when smoking weed and suffered derealization if that changes anything