TL;DR: even high doses of alcohol, xanax (2mg), diazepam (20mg), midazolam (15mg), pregabalin (600mg) dont feel very anxiolytic at all. Should I buy bromazolam, clonazolam and/or baclofen in search for something that works or is it a lost cause?

Before I start I know I know I should not medicate myself for anxiety, but I'm doing it anyways. I have no plans to do it long term at all, max 1x a week. Just need a break you know

Anyways I've never enjoyed alcohol that much, and I've drunk quite a lot. It never makes my social awkwardness go away, I dont get more talkative at all. Good pain-reliever though

I've tried benzos a lot. Diazepam 20mg or xanax 2mg are my go-to's. Also tried midazolam 15mg. None of them were anxiolytic. Pretty hypnotic and emotionally numbing (makes me not feel happy/sad) though

Pregabalin I've tried upwards of 600mg. I hated it. First of all I get really nauseous, but even with nausea-medication it does not feel like much. No anxiolysis whatsoever

So should I keep trying out more GABAergic medications for anxiety or am I that one rare guy that those medications dont work on. I have the opportunity to buy some bromazolam, clonazolam or baclofen. Should I buy em and try or just give up?