Around a year ago I started using HHC maybe 10 times a month but I wouldn't smoke every week, it wouldn't be spaced out too much.

I was always a quiet person and I had anxiety (anxiety has been pretty much all gone after smoking for a few months). It used to feel unnatural to engage in a conversation, I didn't really have many thoughts in my head and I'd only speak if I was spoken to 99% of the time.

Since when I started smoking up until around 2 months ago, it basically felt like amphetamine but less euphoric, but still lots of confidence and with brain fog. I'd still keep this confidence when I was sober, and I became a lot more social. There was a comedown though, after all the talking I would do I would get so drained and just sleep 12 hours.

Over time, it got less stimulating, which was good because at first I couldn't do anything I just kept getting distracted by things. I definitely smoked a lot less in the past 2 months, maybe 3 or 4 times. There's no stimulation anymore, literally 10 mins after I take a hit I just want to sleep. It's like it just skips the stimulation and sends me straight to the tail end of the high. It took me days to recover, I'd just sleep 10hrs every night and still be exhausted.

Now I've gone back into my shell, and smoking doesn't help me get out of it anymore. I feel even worse than before I started smoking, because now I don't have any tool to unlock the social me unless I just do actual stimulants, but I can't afford that.

I am thinking about tripping or rolling again, just once. I don't have access to MDMA anymore so what are some RC alternatives?

Has anyone else been in this situation?