Yea, simple question. I just graduated a few months back and I’ve been working in a factory since. My plan is to save up enough to go to college. I have an architecture degree of sorts, but I can only design houses up to 100m2 which is bs. So I decided to work at a factory.

I travel 1:30 hours back and forth every day to work with a van and wake up at 3 am. I like the job so far, it pays much more than local jobs and it’s kind of easy. Sorry for the text.

I smoke weed (I only smoke dabs) but I haven’t got any in the past weeks. Now, after I get home from work (around 5 pm) I drink 2-3 beers. I like to escape reality on a degree, but also it feels so relaxing to get a buzz after work. I feel like I am making a sin, but in the same time it’s just so refreshing and rewarding after a 9 hour shift.

I am not dependent on it, but I feel like an alcoholic. I have some HHC disty coming in tomorrow and I won’t drink anymore (at least not everyday). But it feels so conflicting knowing the fact, that my bloodline is full of alcoholics.