I'm 5'4. 106lbs/48kg if that matters. I started drinking about 3 months ago. Roughly 350ml a day immediately with no tolerance. Now I drink about 750ml to 1l a day. My blood results are perfect. My liver is perfect. Everything is amazing. The second alcohol leaves my system I get depersonalization. Essentially. I'm reliving acid from the traumatic event 9 months ago. I don't see an image in my head but I feel it. So I start thinking I'm having a heart attack and my brain goes... Maybe I am. When I stop drinking I'm on acid.

Ive consulted people but they don't care as much when you are an adult. Is it PTSD? I start believing I am dying. And it won't stop. I feel all the pain and symptoms psychically. Like actual. I was on my bed and my parents were there and I didn't drink all day and they were gonna call A&E due to my symptoms. Second I had a drink it went away. It wasn't withdrawal. It happens 3 hours after I have last drink. It hurts psychically. It isn't real. I feel disconnected from my body when I don't drink and I start getting cramps, heart palpitations but it's all made up. If this carries on I can't..