I don't even know what's happening anymore. I've had ADHD since I was a kid, been medicated for 14 years now and nothing has ever worked. Recently my mental health has been at an all time low and this past week I've just kind of been taking random amounts of ADHD pills I've stockpiled. Ill just take some pills whenever I'm sleepy or upset. Im probably on like 200mg concerta, 100mg Adderall XR and 140mg Vyvanse daily average, tho the pills I take are random so it'll vary. Nothing helps with my ADHD and honestly I barely feel different. Twice now I've gotten so tired of just my life I swallowed a bottle of my pills. First time it was concerta, must've had like 20 or 30 36mg pills and nothing really happened, second time was 27 10mg Adderall XR pills. I felt considerably worse both times but I just slept it off. It feels like they must be sugar pills because how can I possibly not have a reaction to that? I don't know why these medications do nothing at all to me and I feel so hopeless and lost and just want to take more and more until it works or something. I have no executive function or motivation and I'm so tired of being so useless and pathetic at 21.