Felt nothing the first hour and 30 minutes, thought it was BS and never doing it again. I stood up and just felt a slight wave of excitement and confidence, and thats all it is. All my awkwardness is gone.

I feel functional now, i don’t care about the euphoria. I feel and say and do things how i’m supposed to be doing them. I’m neurodivergent and got bullied alot, i feel like i got all of my confidence back and that i’m not actually able to stand up for myself and make friends. So this is a learning expierence, i still have things that i should fix in my real life. right now i feel like a different person, like i’m in a different world where everything is better. I’m not gonna sugarcoat it, its obviously not a healthy decision. But seeing things from a new perspective and seeing how i’m able to do better on Kratom, and implementing those things in my real life is gonna help me progress.

I told myself i won’t use it until next Monday, and keep it at once a week. If i don’t do that i’ll flush everything down and since i haven’t worked this month, i won’t even be able to get money. Probably writing another update soon just to look back on