It's making me realize that my past drugs abuse was mainly rooted in the idea that drugs were bad, that they were the problem. I wasn't taking responsibility of my actions because "I do drugs and so I'm automatically not responsible". Sure I realize depression was also a role in my past misuse of drugs, but it acted as just another justification to be unresponsible. I know this sounds dumb but if I had seen drugs just as another way to enjoy reality instead of this forbidden fruit that is always bad, I would've actually treated them with much more respect and cared more for my actions. And I'm not justifying my past behavior with ignorance here