On a terrible day in april 2024 I smoke a joint with my friends, within seconds I felt a wave of pleasure wash over me, I would say at that moment I realized it was not just weed but I didn't even think about that I didn't care. We spent the next hour or 2 sitting at a playground not saying a word, just an occasional giggle or 2.

Later I went home feeling euphoric but not exactly high anymore, it was a very strange feeling but I didn't think much of it. Sitting at home about 5 hours later I started feeling VERY high and uphoric again, then I got a text from my friend telling me we had been laced. I only hit this joint about 3 times which I was very grateful for so I can't imagine how everyone else felt, but then I started to panic. A few hours later I went to bed praying to god I would wake up in the morning and feel normal.

I woke up still feeling slightly euphoric and spent the next 30mins on the toilet shitting my guts out and sweating. I went to school and on the way there I noticed I felt as if I was dreaming while I looked around at everything, I wasn't too worried as I assumed whatever I had smoked was still working it's way out of my system.

As the days past I continued to feel like this having panic attacks almost every day wondering if I was ever going to feel normal again. (I had no history of mental illness) My brain just would not work properly, I found myself messing up simple tasks like measuring and cutting pieces of metal to the correct size. I could not do any of my school work and it was seriously getting concerning.

My friends started to notice that I looked lifeless and wasn't saying much at all to them, I just said I was fine despite feeling confused about where I was and who I even am. I didn't hear anything from the people I smoked the joint with so I decided to check up on them, no response. A few days later one finally contacted me and described exactly what I was feeling.

I felt so bad for him because I can't even imagine the pain he must have been going through so we decided to hang out but things just felt off. We discussed what could have been in this fucked up joint, he thought it might be weed mixed with fentanyl, shrooms, and Xanax which is definitely enough to fry your brain for a while. He is far more experienced in drugs than I am but he had no way of knowing what it was this was just his best guess.

My next 3 months were hell, just constant anxiety about what I had done to my brain while trying to cope with the derealization and psychosis. So eventually I talked with a therapist who told me that I probably had some derealization and psychosis. He told me my brain is young and likely to make a full recovery.

5 months later is where I am now and I am happy to say I finally feel real again, I feel like I can think although I still have trouble focusing on anything but I'm okay with that because I feel so much better. I quit weed and replaced it with vaping which has allowed me to focus on life again. I still have some anxiety but it is so much more manageable now that I am out of the derealization and psychosis. I intend on quitting vaping soon and staying sober and can hope to be completely normal again within a year.

If you read this far thank you and if your going to smoke anything ONLY BUY FROM DISPENSARIES NEVER STREET STUFF! I can't stress this enough it's just not worth it at all. Do not make the mistakes I did it was a horrible experience and I would not wish it on anybody.