Reading Erowid finding about new experiences. Having absolutely no idea what to expect before trying a new drug. Meeting new people and seeing new vibes, being amazed and excited at both. Bringing other people onto the experience, but you’re both kinda exploring. Being surprised and laughing about it with your boys. The bright sun shining beautifully on the world when high on weed. The idgaf of alcohol. The love of all on X. The otherworldly dancing of K…

Now I’ve tried all the drug families; downers, uppers, psychedelics, dissociatives. I’ve had ecstatic and terrifying trips. I feel like nothing would feel unprepared shy of a DMT breakthrough. I know myself and how I will react, things are predictable. I’ve met all sorts of types of people and they’re generally disappointingly similar. I’ve seen all sorts of types of places. People my age are getting more serious about life and settling into various habits. Those more random experiences now mostly come from those younger than me who seem childish, or older than me and seem depressing. Increasingly I find myself doing K more to reignite that feeling of awe; at the cost of my ability to properly partake in the experience… I miss being a younger age.

So idk where I’m going with this… anyone relate? Anyone have some advice to reignite that early magic? Or more pessimistically but probably equally usefully how to overcome that want?