I prefer being sober, but sometimes I like to do drugs if I'm with a group of people. Shrooms and ecstasy are my favourite two.

So far I have done: ecstasy/molly/coke/shrooms/LSD/pregablin/benzos/balloons

I get zero comedowns from any of them. I don't even get hangovers from alcohol, even if I black out.

I feel nothing from coke. I have done £50 to myself to test my limits, and nothing. I just went home and fell asleep. I know that I am buying good shit too, but it doesn't matter. Meanwhile one of my (ex) friends has a mental breakdown pretty much every time she does it, even after just a couple of lines.

I feel nothing from benzos. My friend takes them to sleep and loves them, but I took them and felt nothing. Edibles have made me more tired.

I've taken 5 ecstasy pills and been fine, while my friend who weighs 20kg more than me was completely fuckeddddddddd and on the floor after 2.

I have mixed 5 pregablin with alcohol multiple times and been fine, while 2 of my friends had seizures after 1-2 (their first time ever taking it, too)

Back to my first point - I prefer being sober. I don't even smoke weed by myself. I have not taken any drug in about 4 months, because I see no reason to. I have pills/lsd/shrooms in my house rn that I have no intention of taking, because the idea doesn't even interest me. I'd rather save them for a special occasion or something.

Long story short...

I feel like I have a very bad false sense of security here. I feel like I've "conquered" drugs, and like I don't respect them enough, which I feel is very dangerous. I want to try other drugs like ketamine and adderall (I have ADHD so this is #1 on my list), but what's stopping me is that maybe I have been pushing my luck. Maybe I take ketamin and get addicted instantly, for example.

Not to mention that my only limits really, are crack/heroin/meth. I've been considering hard drugs like xanax and lean, etc. but is it really worth it just for the experience? With how addicting it is? I've heard that lean is liquid heroin.

Edit: I wanna add that weed fucks me up more than any other drug for some reason😅 2 edibles and I'm passed out. Half the time, a couple of puffs is enough to take away my ability to speak. With stronger strains, I had BAD paranoia in Amsterdam. I could hear a group of kids talking about how they were going to stab me and my cousin, and steal the bike that we were looking after... I imagined all of it. So I'm not trying to act like I'm a drug God or anything, when the "weakest" drug is my kryptonite. Just trying to recount my experiences as accurately as possible.